hmm so vivas have come and gone... wasnt really tt great la but well whatever happens happens ya. anyway after the viva i was like abit regretting not begging the profs to pls pass me and kinda brooding abt it till mh came and we went town haha felt much better after tt cos once i get distracted i wun get re-tracted again haha. if u get what i mean...well anyway we went to watch the producers which is like a super lame but qt nice show haha. there was like some angmohs laughing super loudy in the cinema which kinda added to the happy factor in there haha cos there wasnt tt many pple inside so it felt abit wierd if ur the only one laughing...but ya was nice to hang out with him again :) was supposed to stay in hall today to catch up on house and desp housewives but ended up going home instead so here i am!
hmm dunno la had alot of thoughts on alot of things and somehow my mind just emptied! haha. ok but ill try to remeber
was kinda not feeling too well over the weekend cos i had a really bad headache so i think i was like rambling abit and not speaking too coherently sometimes so i dun think i handled the thtb discussion session very well haha but oh wells. dunno la. dun think they get the pt i was trying to make and it was so noisy and like not condusive so i din push it but i hope tt they learnt something haha.
anyway i kinda wish pple wun ask me to go clubbing anymore... its like every tues pple start asking me and i start feeling like going but then i know i shouldnt go and then just like feel very tempted to. but He provides a way out when tempted right! and i guess if i can really do it its honouring God so well. ill really really try harder now k!
sometimes i think abt what would i be like if i didnt have Jesus in my life and i think ill prob be someone who chases after pleasure and yes does not have joy. i think ill probably still seem happy but deep down inside i wont have peace and there will be nothing holding me back from ruining my own life my going all out after the pleasures of life. cos i realised that when someone tells me to do something ill purposely push it so tt i go against them even when i know its the best thing to do. like my dad would say "arent you going to study" so ill purposely like push back starting a few days just to be stubborn...which is really stupid of course but i dunno la. as it is the only voice i really try to listen to inequivocally is the voice of God and im not doing too great a job at it (but at least i try) so if i wasnt able to hear this voice then i think ill be like a wild kid man... woahz. not a pretty sight haha. and i dont think ill really have alot of self esteem also. and i probably wont be where i am today because i only got into med sch by a miracle so yeah! scary thoughts man... makes me all the more grateful that He is in my life to make me a not screwed up person tho i really do deserve to be one! thanks Lord... You rock!
anywayyyyyy. we going bangkok nxt week! haha so funnnn. sighz tho im not in a very fun mood right now and like thinking of some stuff tt im still confused abt BUT. yay! bangkok! haha. :)
hmm dunno la had alot of thoughts on alot of things and somehow my mind just emptied! haha. ok but ill try to remeber
was kinda not feeling too well over the weekend cos i had a really bad headache so i think i was like rambling abit and not speaking too coherently sometimes so i dun think i handled the thtb discussion session very well haha but oh wells. dunno la. dun think they get the pt i was trying to make and it was so noisy and like not condusive so i din push it but i hope tt they learnt something haha.
anyway i kinda wish pple wun ask me to go clubbing anymore... its like every tues pple start asking me and i start feeling like going but then i know i shouldnt go and then just like feel very tempted to. but He provides a way out when tempted right! and i guess if i can really do it its honouring God so well. ill really really try harder now k!
sometimes i think abt what would i be like if i didnt have Jesus in my life and i think ill prob be someone who chases after pleasure and yes does not have joy. i think ill probably still seem happy but deep down inside i wont have peace and there will be nothing holding me back from ruining my own life my going all out after the pleasures of life. cos i realised that when someone tells me to do something ill purposely push it so tt i go against them even when i know its the best thing to do. like my dad would say "arent you going to study" so ill purposely like push back starting a few days just to be stubborn...which is really stupid of course but i dunno la. as it is the only voice i really try to listen to inequivocally is the voice of God and im not doing too great a job at it (but at least i try) so if i wasnt able to hear this voice then i think ill be like a wild kid man... woahz. not a pretty sight haha. and i dont think ill really have alot of self esteem also. and i probably wont be where i am today because i only got into med sch by a miracle so yeah! scary thoughts man... makes me all the more grateful that He is in my life to make me a not screwed up person tho i really do deserve to be one! thanks Lord... You rock!
anywayyyyyy. we going bangkok nxt week! haha so funnnn. sighz tho im not in a very fun mood right now and like thinking of some stuff tt im still confused abt BUT. yay! bangkok! haha. :)
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